I did it too

I cant believe it
Accusing me?
You might wanna look at yourself
Cause I already know

Its funny how you see things
So quick to point the finger, at me
I know I'm not the only one
To hear that you've been doing wrong
Your not slick at all

I already know
You've been playing me
Cheating on the low
But my heart can't take it anymore
Its been hurting me I wont let it show
I'm not saying that I'm right
I'm not saying I'm innocent ,no
Don't go acting like its me
But you've been doing the same thing
I just haven't said nothing


It just hasn't been me
It also has been you
I kept it to myself
Cause I already know
Now that I realize
We both been telling lies
It's staying with you right
I don't know

I Am Beautiful

You said that I wasn't pretty
So I just believed you
And you said that I wasn't special
So I lived that way
With critical gazes and brutal amazement
And how my reflection could be so imperfect
With all of my blemishes, how could somebody possibly want me

But God loves ugly
He doesn't see the way I  see
He takes ugly
And turns it into to something that is beautiful
Apparently I'm beautiful
Cause He loves me

I tried to clean up the outside
All shiny and new
Worked over time to thin up and look right
But inside I knew
That deep in the bottom were secrets I thought I could try to ignore
Old ghosts in my corridors
Never get tired of haunting the past that's in me



Help me believe why you love me
When I know you see
You see everything
Inside and you still say I'm beautiful

You're telling me I'm beautiful
Your screaming out I'm so beautiful
And I'm finding out I'm beautiful
You're making me so beautiful
And I can see I'm beautiful
Cause He loves me

I Wanna Grow.

It's a new day and I feel good
If I wanna spread my wings
I know that I could
I got a feeling that today begins
A healing where we all win

I feel emotions deep inside my bones
Like an ocean when the wave gets strong
I feel today is my victory
I gotta get out there and make history

I had a vision, it was real to me
Like a new song and my heart that sings
Just like the striking of a lightning ball
I feel the power of a miracle

All in good faith,i wanna grow.

Mambo Yalivyo.

"well,sometimes we complicate things by trying to define everything thats going on around us and with us..Just let everything be,and in the unsure circumstance,when maybe you want to see other pple but somehow you want to some sort of security with the one person you know likes you very much,just make her/he feel needed then come Friday..try find a better option..if it doesnt work,too bad,you are stuck with her/him for another bloody week."

yeah..am thinking alot bout this statement..

Happy Post Valentines y'all.

A Reason/A Season.

A Reason...
When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that need has been met, our desire fufilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is time to move on. NEXT!

When a prayer is answered, there is no need to cry.



A Season...
When people come into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy!. Believe it! It is real! But ony for a season. In the same way that the leaves must fall from the trees, or the moon becomes full and then disappears, your seasonal relationships will end at the divinely appointed time. When that time comes, there is nothing you can say to make it work. There is no one you can blame. You cannot fix it. You cannot explain it. The harder you clutch, the worse it will feel. When the end of a season comes in a relationship, the only thing for you to do is let go.

For everything,there is a reason.
For everything,there is a season.

 

Happy Valentine's day y'all.

 

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MIdnight Bottle

Midnight bottle take me calmly through my memories and everything will come back to me,
Midnight bottle make it real what feels like make believe,so I can see a little more clearly,
Like every single move you make kissing me so carefully on the corners of my dreaming eyes

I've got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight

 I've got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
I think of you and everything's all right if only for tonight
Got a midnight bottle drifting off into the candlelight where I can find you any old time
A midnight bottle I forgot how good it felt to be in a dream just like you had me
Cause lately I've been stumbling feels like I'm recovering
But I think it's only for tonight

I've got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
Well...If only for tonight,

I Am An Escapist

After my storming out yesterday..almost 24 hours later..am feeling like crap..He asked me to stay and i still walked out..he pleaded with me to stay and still,i left..Well..he is not sure if i came home..if i came home alone..if am still crazy about him and now i realise i may have just worsened our already strained relationship.

But one thing i know for sure,if i stayed,i would have slept thinking of how maybe,later,i will recent him for not trusting me..and walking away would have helped me clear my mind.and thats why i got up,packed my things and left.

And still,even if i stayed,we wouldnt have talked about it in the morning or days to come coz i would have just let it go until he brought it all up again.

I will miss him tonight for sure.i am used to his embrace when i sleep and even though i am still trying to figure out what he is all about(which is not simple at all)one thing is for sure,i wouldnt want not to be with him for days and days to come..Complicated he surely is but my heart beats for him.

Good night World.

Marry Me

Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry Me
Today and every day
Marry Me
If I ever get the nerve to say
Hello in this cafe
Say you will
Good day pple.

IT MATTERS WHAT YOU THINK OF ME

Am not angry..okay maybe alittle.

I talk alot,always want to be in a conversation with whoever is around me,i talk to strangers..i just talk alot..but with you,i try hard  to read your mood,when you want to talk and when you dont.When i should talk and when i shouldnt and  its alot of work but i wanna do it..Because i want to be with you..Because am crazy bout you..and everything bout you.

Walking out of your bed tonight,out of your room and out of your house in the middle of the night..Crazy,dramatic..whatever you may want to call it but i just need you to understand that it matters what you think of me.

its not fair when you dismiss me like nothing i say to you matters,and all i want is to talk to you once in a while..like we know each other..like we are part of each other's life,Unless you dont want that of us anymore.

it matters what you think of me and once in a while,i wanna know whats on your mind.

Ps:i miss you.

Oxygen

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile
He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater
I like him..with every part of me..am afraid to let him see that because he might not like this side of me..but when i dont respond to some things he says to me..he doubts that i its only him i have in my life..only him i love..only him i want to spend time with..only him i want to wake up next to for a long time..but i hold back..because his heart has been broken before,and mine has been trampled on before so both our sake..somethings are better left unsaid.

My Name,The Name

I am changed..am different.. I am  not  the person i was two months ago.Alot has happened..good and bad.Lessons learned and am glad am the way i am.

A blog..who would have thought!!!